Blogger and Facebook

By spending time on blogger and facebook, I have known what is going on with the people around me, how they spend their lives, what they have and so on. For a while, I will forget the remorse that i should have done something for my FYP. However, this FYP keeps haunting me not to enjoy those activities peacefully. Once a while, it will attack me in my brain, and i would try to find the way to forget about it until at one point, i feel like the time is too late already, and I am going to keep saying Fuck Me!!! That's what i would say to myself and most of the time I would keep thinking of suicide because that is the last thing i think i can do to avoid the most painful result that would happen.

So, this is what I get from my facebook and blogger. Not to mention about others stuffs that i used to forget about FYP such as excuses of still having a lot of time( not even one month, i dare to count), watching movie, listening to music, going jogging, chatting with random people, dreaming of bright future, looking for new ideas, writing blog and so on.

This is the choice that I take. I decided not to think about it yet, I wait till tomorrow when i get up, take lunch,then i would think about it. And when the time come, i would find more excuse about being sleepy, and the jogging time is coming. Millions excuses are waiting. 

Knowing everything about what would happen, but still I do not prevent it. What does it mean? Whether I do it now or later, i will still be doing it unless I don't want to graduate yet. I have no right to force myself because it is too strong now. It's quite late now. Just go to bed and sleep. One last small piece of advice, think of how hard your parents try to bring you up!