Again? Today, i have done something that i didn't plan to do again. I went to eat outside with Ratana. More than that, i drank a can of beer, but it doesn't affect me anything. I just feel normal. The point is that i want to watch Euro Cup highlight, and i want to go to facebook to visit a houy, and i want to listen to some music. These are all the things that i have banned myself. And according to the principle, i can't do all those things at all, why? because they will lead to another distracting thing, i will keep doing thing that distract me. I may find some excuses such as i can do it tmr, or it is not too late yet. It's not about all these things, this is about only one thing and the thing is i will let myself go with it. I won't control myself at all. Believe me, it's who you are. If you are going to go back to all those things, you are going to become the old person, the person that lead his life without any goal, the person without any principle, the person who is full of shit.

So, since i can't do those things. What should i do now? I still have stomach ache. and I am a bit lazy right now. So what should i do. Remember that this is the obstacles that come to tests you. How far you can go this time?

Anyway, are you happy with what you are doing now or not? Do you want to go back to your old life? A life without any control, you can do anything you want, but you don't have any goal, you are not disciple at all. You are stressful all the time. Most of the time, you kept thinking about suicide. You like talking too much, chatting too much and at night, you can't go to sleep. Your brain is full of shit. It keeps going to find something what is called ego. Try to find something to fill its hole, try to fill it with something that never stop such as girls, jobs, everything that is not really matter now. The only thing that is matter now is only one thing which is FYP.I have to do my FYP. You understand that? That's how you are going to deal with yourself. Just focus and think of FPY only.

Now, there are 3 obstacles such as lazy, sleepy, and stomach ache. If i can get rid of laziness, i can get rid of sleepiness. For stomach ache, i have to wait for another 30 and sees. Now try to get rid of laziness first. There are a few things i can do to get rid of laziness. I can go to take my clothes and put them into my closet. Ok, let's go and see, how many percent, i can reduce my laziness.

Still being lazy. Ok, now let's try to clean my table and keep saying that you love earthquake.

Still! How about reading self development a few chapters Let's see!

Still sleepy, and lazy, but the stomach ache is kind of released now. Hope it will be ok. I am really sleepy and lazy because i ate too much and i also drink a can of beer. I think there are some other ways i can do now. Whether i just try to start reading my project because i may love reading cuz i have some ideas about it already. or I may go to take bath a little bit first, washing myself as hard as i can. That's maybe better, but don't sleep and do nothing. Let's try the first one for 15mns. if i am still sleepy, i will go to take bath.

Ok, when i just simply read the note, i become less lazy. But not really excited to do it. But it is actually moving on. that's the best part actually, as long as it moves on whether slow or fast, it is my ability. At least, i can know my real potential.

Next is the 3 important stages. I have to understand them. What does it means? If i don't understand anything, i have to go to wiki, and search and ask, and try to understand the basic formula. It must be difficult and quite a big challenge for me, and i have to win it. Ok, in order not to waste the time anymore, i have to set the time to do it, and start doing as fast as i can. try to understand it. Let's go! Take bath, come back and sit straight till 2. Hope i can finish them in 3 hours.